Relative ba ang pagpaparamdam/signs? Kasi di naman ako dati nakakakita ng swallows sa may smoking area, suddenly today, meron.
Am I over thinking, or is it freaking happening again?
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Someone asked me before why it’s common for people to look for persian food after drinking beer. Actually, the idea was just for something spicy, not specifically persian. Naaalala kong sinagot ko siya with the impulse to burn the tongue with something hot after it being numb with the beer, pero di ko naisip na baka it’s one of those “theoretical” questions which you’re supposed to just go “oo nga, no?” and not really answer it literally.
The reason why I’m saying that now is my first impulse for food earlier was to look for one of ‘em spicy noodles. Nainis pa akong walang available na uber hot / spicy version. Pakshet.
And no, I didn’t go to work drunk. Don’t worry. But I did go to work with slight traces of beer and a rather weird after-beer feeling. Some people call it hang over, but then again, it wasn’t that strong to be labelled as one. I was drowning a lingering feeling with Danny Zuko. Yes, I was watching Grease early in the morning. That’s what happens when you catch yourself singing out loud to “Walking On Sunshine / Halo” Glee version at 3 am, while sitting on the steps of Burgundy tower and everything kinda feels like it’s a saturated version of Sunday at 7am but with heightened “Good morning, Makati” feeling. Oh, yes, dear readers, I was a living manifestation of a giggly prepubescent at dawn.
So when I came home, I made love to Danny Zuko. Except Olivia Newton-John snapped me back to reality after singing, “Hopelessly addicted to you.”
Yes, I feel like a pendulum being swung madly. Worse, it’s a freaking whiplash of sorts. God help me and my unresolved feelings.
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Eh kung sagutin ko kaya yung Facebook status mo?
Wag na. Baka mapahiya ako. Hindi naman para sa akin yun, e. 
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Nica stopped by my station for a chat earlier. I gave her my reasons why I’m chicken. Haha.
Sabi nya, I look better lately. Siya ba daw ang dahilan. Sabi ko, one-sided. Very VERY relative. I don’t think siya ang rason, but I’d like to think so. I’d like to hope so. Sabi nya I gained weight, but I look better. That is such an oxymoron if told to a girl, for crying out loud.
Naiisip ko lang, ayoko nang ikwento ng ikwento yung story. Nagsasawa na akong marinig how my insecurities killed my chances. Pero di ko rin naman alam kung bakit di ko tinatanggal yung pic nya sa desk ko, which would spark a lot of curious questions. I guess, I wanna be reminded of the oher relative side–the better one.
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I got a goody bag from someone I still haven’t figured out kung sino. Tinawag lang ako nung guard, said I have something. Sabi ko, kanino galing? Sabi ni Kuya Guard, ayan po, o, may pangalan.
Eh nakasulat: To: Boss JC Fr: Meh ΓΌ
Nakakaloko ka naman, kuya e. ))
Someone’s keeping tab of my new years’ resolutions / open issues–one of my original kids from the North America Geo. She said I have only done two of them (both done before the year ended), and the third one is delayed by 10 days. Sabi ko Four and Five will come this weekend. Oo, pagsasabayin ko. That kinda means I have to cut down on booze.
Shitshitshit. I am soooo anxious.
