I feel rotten. I was looking at an associate earlier and I remember actually liking this person AS A PERSON. Now, I only feel a little disgust.

I dunno. I just have something with leeches sucking off energy and sympathy from everyone for a living. And then deliberately killing thy self with a pack or two of Marlboro lights and beer at every given opportunity, and sneak out of the back door to smoke if prohibited. Sheesh.

Anyway. I’m blogging to take off the goddamn boredom. There’s something terribly wrong with the way work is coming through to some employees–they’re all admitting to feeling the drag of having to go to work, much less actually DO work. Having to wake up and go to work is tedious enough.

I don’t think it’s pretty much an effect of change of companies though, or the fact that this is our second work in the same line. Maybe it’s just that at this point, things aren’t too right. And that’s not good for a twenty something job offer when everyone is playing around 13. And that’s not good for a company with a feedback that their account is less stressful compared to the previous, either.

It may not be lack of competition. I personally think the account is challenging enough. It’s just that at this point, we’re lacking motivation. Maybe Ger and I need more activities to take our minds off things. Maybe we need a side job. But at this point, things are just looking bleak. When we used to want to do over times to rake in the money, now with a higher pay we don’t even play with the idea. We being laid with a pre-work sickness pinning us down to our bed. Or our drive being pulled down as soon as we sit on the office chair.

We needed sugar to boost the little energy left playing around. And unfortunately, this dilemma is playing with the minds of most of the people we know. A lot has resigned due to it. And when people are resigning, we know the motivation to resign would soon come around to haunt us.

And yes, I call that motivation to resign. We’re just pulling some reasons not to. We’re just worried where or what we’ll do next if it catches up with us.