Things are long overdue. I have been procrastinating on everything far too long. And somehow, someday, they’re going to backfire on me. I have to learn things that way.

The pitiful, pathetic, and hurting way.

Sigh. To everyone, I’m so sorry. I am just lost in a limbo for a while.

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I miss some old things. I miss the times when things weren’t as complicated as now. I wish angst did not get the better of me. But it did. Rational thinking was corrupted.

Or maybe it IS rational thinking that was on full swing, telling me to finally make a stand.

And now, I’m sick of things. I’m sick of the way things are not bending to how I wish they would bend. Things are trying to hit me behind my back. People are putting up plots thinking I would not understand. Please, for crying out loud, my logical thinking may be equal to my drunk self everytime, but I could still think. And I could see behind your actions. And I do know when I should sympathize. Or on some cases, put up a fierce front. because it’s just not funny how you do things anymore.

Forgive me. But I have had enough. When I have finally put my finger on things, your hopes will crumble right before your very eyes. You need to see reality.