O, ano? Akala ninyo ba, nagmukmok ako sa bahay buong magdamag?! Akala ninyo ba, talagang na heartbroken ako at tumigil sa pagsusulat?!
Hwahahaha!! Ako pa?!
Nope, kiddies. Self immolation’s over and done for me. Para namang hindi ninyo ako kilala. Ako pa, magmumukmok? Ako pa, magiging heartbroken? Nyahaha. No way, dude. I can try that and make it last for three or so days (uhm, which happened, btw), but to make it last a lifetime? Okay, so maybe not a lifetime but, well, at least enough to make me stop writing? Oh man. All I can say is that I missed you guys so much. I missed my blog, I missed updating, I missed everything; but the re-overhauling has to be done in solitary mode. While also learning a lot of things from a vast variety of sources–hurt, pain, pride, life, sarcasm, stupidity, haste…just to name a few.
Sure, I was somewhat hurt. But it was over, for goodness’ sake. After three days, it was. It was just fun doing the self immolation thing because I just had to know a lot of whys, a lot of hows, and definitely a lot of what ifs. Answers are still vague, true, but one thing’s for sure . . . I’ve learned a lot, and like what a friend said (or wrote), Happy Endings are for fairy tales. And fairy tales are for suckers, almost in its literal sense (babies suck on their bottles, don’t they? he he.) but most especially in its street-meaning/slang sense.
Anyway, I’ve done a thank-you on the bottom part of this page, browse it please and see if you can find your name there. If you do, I repeat my thanks. If you don’t, that’s probably because your contribution wasn’t on the time frame this project was done, but let me thank you still for contributing something in me. You were a part of my past that’s fast weaving my future. For that, thanks still.
Now, I have to do my own exorcism: With the launch of this new layout (and other components, check it out kiddies) is the re-establishment of a lot of things. Gone should the aria of sorrow be. Gone should the aria of esoteric melancholy be.
Let us all welcome back . . . the reign of derision and cynism. Welcome back, me.
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MY SITE’S FUCKING UP.
It’s expected. It’s on an experiment mode, and the layout was fixed using a smaller monitor. It fucks up on bigger screen monitors. Now I fixed on a big-screen monitor, I now don’t know how it’s going to look like on a small screen monitor.
Expected bugs:
> The layout on the main page has unproportioned table fixings. I fixed that now to fit on a big screen monitor, I don’t know how it will turn out on others.
> the profile bg is extending when it should not. it’s fixed now through the help of css.
> the blogspot first page is taking a long time to download. My site is automatically an irritating site for people who have dial-ups on a sloth mode, like mine.
Please bear with the problems. If you see something wrong, please tell me quick.
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Do you guys know a good way how I can sleep without exactly minimizing the abuse of caffeine? My body clock is disrupted. I have to constantly wake up early in the morning in order for me to be able to sleep at least before 2 am. I now fall asleep only after 4 am, and that’s after too much mind conditioning.
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sleep, stupid. sleep.
sleep. no reason to stay awake. no one’s thinking of you today, dammit.
sleep. it won’t hurt that way.
well so what if you’re not hurting anymore, i don’t care, you asshole. you have things to attend to, i don’t want a body dropping hard on the pavement.
fine. don’t sleep. see if i care.
sleep. please?
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uhm, that’s me. sorry.
Sigh. I’m that desperate. I’m even using Sonic Youth now, feeding it on the player just for me to sleep. It’s like, forced shut-eye.
What can I do? Please? Help?
