So far, I learned two important things when I went to Big Sky Mind at E. Rodriguez last night for the first time. Big Sky doesn�t have anything to do much about my realizations, but it contributed to the way the realizations came unto me:
JC, please take note that,
One, unless you are sure of where you�re going next after that bottle that already made you dizzy, just plainly stop. The act of taking a nap right there and then (which made you miss Paramita�s set) momentarily does not justify the reason that you needed that to pacify yourself after the amounts of alcohol you have taken, and neither will you be able to fully take back what will happen next. As much as you trust the people around you, you will not be able to make THEM trust you even if you tell them afterwards that you were just drunk. Your reputation will still be the one you would be risking.
In addition to that, unless you are in your own territory, it will NEVER be okay to be drunk. Especially if you have to go home afterwards, unless someone�s concretely there to back you up and drive you home�like Prince William or Josh Hartnett for instance. Or maybe just one of your brothers.
Two, do not ever, ever jump into conclusions again. What is applicable to one is not or may not be applicable to the other, therefore, committing the fallacy of composition: what is true of one is not exactly true of the whole. So, as much as you wish to believe that everyone on the same league as Person A whom you have relied on can also be relied on like A, it is not wise to conclude quickly that what is true of Person A will be true of the person you thought would be in the same league of Person A. Also, since we are all humans, we all tend to make mistakes.
Again, in addition to that, please do not be selfish. Just because Person A has always been there does not mean Person A will be there for you always. Firstly, A has no commitment to be your own personal catcher-to-fall-back-on forever, mainly because A is JUST YOUR FRIEND, THEREFORE, A IS NOT OBLIGATED TO BE THERE FOR YOU ALWAYS. You should be thankful enough that at least A is there when you needed a friend.
Also, in relation to this, do not ever go again to gigs especially if you would, 1) most likely make someone like A worry about how you�re going to manage, and B) obligate some other people/be a nuisance to other people only to accompany you till morning. Remember that these people have their own lives to live. As much as they say it is okay�even YOU admit that you are aware you are causing them trouble. They could have been sleeping instead of walking around with you somewhere. And, do not involve your other personal causes every time you expect (still in relation to this topic) on something. Because most likely, if you end up angry because of a broken expectation, it would give you a hard time trying to figure out how you�re going to justify your actions/outbursts, knowing fully well, that, well, personal nga, eh. Kapag pinilit mong ipaliwanag, malalaman lang ang personal mong sikreto. Tanga ka kasi.
If you�re still interested, people, I�ll try to add more next time. What happened last night? Hopped from Temple Bar, Greenbelt to attend Wolfmann�s album launching/Girbaud modeling with some listers, then jumped to Big Sky Mind to attend a Dead Pan Society gig that had Bog, Paramita, Dicta License, Silent Sanctuary, and Imago on the line-up. Oh, and Bernie T. Sim from MTV Ink/Pulp was also there. Tinawag pa akong lasengga. Ha ha.
Excess: Tani, thank you very much from the bottom of my heart. If Ria of Paramita would know what you did for me last night, I swear you might actually have your chances of�aherm.
Uyy�binata na ang friend ko. *sniff, sniff*
But really, thanks. Pinatunayan mong gentleman ka nga tulad ng pinagpipilitan mo. 